Sunday, 19 May 2019

Emotionally unstable

Well hello again,  I'm writing this right now because I have to get it off my chest. During the past week I haven't been feeling the best. I'm constantly having mood swings and I don't mean it like one day I'm good the second day I'm not, I mean it like one hour I'm good and the next...well not that much. It's so difficult to explain because I'm not even sure what that is.

I have a lot of pressure on me right now from my family, friends, teachers... and those expectations are killing me, because I'm expecting that much from myself too. It's been such a long time since I've actually felt happy and I'm kind of forgetting what that used to feel like.

I'm constantly reminding myself that I CAN be positive but then, out of nowhere a freaking dark thought rushes into my mind and destroys everything. I don't know if it's my anxiety, the pressure, or another mental illness I have yet to discover. Not to mention the fact that all I want is to just lock myself in my bedroom, which I used to do before but not this much.

The worst part is that my parents don't get any of this, so whenever I suddenly feel so down all they do is criticize me. And yes I have talked with them about it before and I thought they understood but apparently they didn't.

What is also scaring me is the fact that I'm constantly thinking " If I die right now wouldn't I feel better?". It's not like suicidal thoughts, I don't want to kill myself and I don't want to die either, it's just that being constantly worried and always overthinking everything is exhausting and the only thing helping me get some rest is sleep( even if it's for a few hours).

I know I'm not the only one dealing with this, and I know some people deal with problems much worse than mine, but this is me, and those are the problems I try my  hardest to fight against, and I'm not willing to give up. I do hope reading this makes you feel a little better, I mean knowing that you're not alone, but I would also appreciate it if you could leave some advice here for me.
I hope things will get better for all of us, STAY STRONG.

Friday, 10 May 2019

Overcoming STRESS!

How to overcome STRESS?!😄
Hi, so this is my very first blog and to be honest with you, I don't really know what I'm doing, but I'm enjoying this already.
So... I think that everyone here has already experienced the very famous emotion: STRESS, and a lot of us also thought that it's okay and it will pass but it doesn't always go that way especially when it's intense. What can trigger it is either an important situation that has the potential to change your life, pressure from others and yourself or even tests you have to take at school or college. So basically stress can be triggered by literally anything.
I have personally been dealing with it for as long as I can remember and at some point it becomes really annoying and exhausting to constantly being on your nerves and not being able to relax. So after many years of struggling a lot with it I have found my own ways not to completely control it but to at least be able to decrease its symptoms whenever I feel this emotion intensely. So here are MY WAYS to deal with it:👇
1.No matter how busy you are, take a break and do something fun that will get your mind off of the thing that's causing you to stress.
2.Find out what's the real reason behind your stress in order to solve the problem.
3.If your stressing because of a test you have be confident in what you've studied and tell yourself that you've been through this before.
4.Don't let it all in, feel every single emotion the way it should be felt.
5.To express your emotions I definitely recommend crying , OR doing something artsy like painting or writing a poem( even if you're not an artist).
6.Something you've heard before but it really helps a lot; talk about it with someone you feel comfortable with.
7.When you're done stressing don't constantly go back to think about it.
8.Will it matter in like...5 months?
9.Don't eat, drink or do something that has the potential to trigger it.
10.When you're stressing be aware of it and don't push it to the back of your mind, YOUR MENTAL HEALTH IS IMPORTANT.
11.If a certain pretty long phase is stressing you , you are always allowed to seek professional help( don't be ashamed of it).
12.Don't put too much effort in things that won't make YOU happy or that aren't THAT important.
13.You can also pray, which will bring you inner peace, but this is totally up to you depending on your religion, faith and beliefs.
I'm not an expert and I'm obviously still figuring my life out and how to deal with the problems that come with it. But you know what, I feel like sometimes it's not really about how to overcome something but more about feeling like other people do know and understand how it feels like to deal with this particular emotion. This is what can make you feel safe and better because you feel like you're not the only one going through it and if everyone is working their way out of it , SO CAN YOU!heart